There’s been a lot of grey days lately; ones that appear to blanket the entire sky, and ones that are much more subtle, secretly dimming and darkening the colour of my thoughts.
It’s definitely been a hard time for everyone and it’s not always easy to find the light.
When I was in my early twenties, I would often desperately wish for the sun. I would slowly raise my two fingers up to the sky and start to focus intently by gently closing one of my eyes. I would then place my fingers firmly on the clouds and begin to move them in a circular motion, like a magic eraser, while believing in my power to make them disappear.
It was like the heart that beat inside of me was loudly singing the lyric from Steve Winwood’s ‘Higher Love’: “I can make the sun shine from pure desire!”
I haven’t felt that way in a long time.
But the other day I felt more like myself. My body was calm, my thoughts were kind, and fear and doubt were nowhere to be found. As I glanced out the window, I saw the sun ever so slightly start to sneak out from behind the grey. I turned to my kids and said, “Ohhhh look, the sun might come out!”, and without pause my daughter replied, “Maybe the sun is just waiting for us.”
When things start to get dark, it becomes much harder to see, and when they stay dark, it can often feel like the pillars of who we are, how we function, and how we survive in the world, start to give way and crumble. But it’s all still in there. All of the same, wonderful, glorious things that make you, you. That make your heart sing and your smile shine – it’s all still there.
And even though in the moment we might feel completely lost and hopeless, without a single clue as to how we can get our power back, maybe we can take comfort in the fact that the heart that beats inside of us today, is the same one from years gone by, and that our capability to exude our power is still there, because it always has been, and always will be.
All we need to do is remember.
Because, man, in life, it’s so easy to forget.
And in the interim, we can be grateful for those around us, like these two smiling beauties, who gently open my eyes for me when I have a hard time seeing.