I have absolutely no interest in the future.
My adventures would be solely in the past.
Precariously belly diving
into our childhood deep freeze
for a banana popsicle
during a backyard badminton tournament.
Making a more sound decision
and never getting my belly button pierced
It’s one of my only real regrets.
And having some sense to put on
even just a small amount of sunscreen
to avoid that burn of all burns
I’d treat it all like a very vivid dream
And throw caution to the wind.
Go on more dates – lots of them
Rock some worlds and blow some minds – ha!
with all those assholes in high school
and rip them some brand new ones.
And I wouldn’t be so nice all the time
especially to people that didn’t deserve it.
I’d go back to when I was 6
just to remember how I felt day-to-day
and to let her know
that it was all going to be ok.
I’d make my brother and I talk more
about the deeper stuff
the more uncomfortable stuff.
I’d lay peacefully in my bed
half awake but half asleep
as the clicks and clacks
of my Mom doing her makeup routine
filled my ears.
And I’d go back to when my parents were kids
when they needed someone the most
in those life altering moments
and I would give them a giant hug.
I’d pet my cats.
I’d show and feel my emotions.
And I’d try to say
all the things
that were hard to say.
Where would you travel to?