i used to think the universe was trying to test me
trying to see if I could handle it all
as it continued to pile on more and more
at an incredible rate
all at the same time.
but after a lot of “tests”
and what felt like a lot of defeats
it wasn’t an opportunity to see how much I could handle
an opportunity to see if I could be honest
about being a feeling human
in a life that’s sometimes hard.
and if I could show it
instead of hiding from it
by being brave enough
and strong enough
to fall apart
and without fail
when I did that
when it all finally cracked open
that’s when things got lighter.